Every time it would happen & it happened this time also. The realization that a new year has dawned and has brought in some newer beginnings ,some closures on the old ‘chapters’ would really set in quite late with in me and by that time the bell rings in my head bang! another year would have fell in place . 2010 was no such exception.The year had just whizzed past me quite peacefully and rather uneventful, as in ,with no major challenges or hurts , but came with a irreparable loss on the personal front. Beginning of the year was when the tragic struck when we lost the person whom I’ve had immense faith, respect ,loved & adored immensely to the deadly disease of advanced tuberculosis. My grandmother to us was one-of -a -kind woman. She was strong, independent , forward thinking and above all a woman with substance. She could debate on anything & everything under the sun right from the politics to modern day cinema. She was a scribe to the visually challenged people & she helped them with their daily lessons by reading & writing their school or college work. Apart from my mother she’s the next woman to have induced the kind of respect that I’ve now for the age-old institution called ‘marriage’, while I would really not delve too much into the intricacies of it, which by itself would be a different post ,I would like to highlight one interesting habit of her’s which would sketch the rest of her character. A midst the women who would try gathering the sympathies & the accolades they expect for the paltry gestures from their spouses and talk ’liberation’ and stuff even at the drop of a hat , here was the woman who had shed all her epicures of food willfully ever since my grandfather was diagnosed with diabetes & three blocks in heart . The gesture might be as small as it is but the impact was great as it is. While I could go on more about her yet am still struggling to come on terms of her absence in this world.
Other wise the year was THE most peaceful I‘ve ever had. I’d turned into a full-time home maker and have now completely made my peace with this fact because anyway a person with one and half a year break in her resume is nothing short of a new comer and now even if I wish to join back the work force am going to be treated as one. But no, definitely I’ve no complaints on that and if anything I thoroughly enjoyed and am enjoying this stint as a home maker. I’ve some thing with me which others long for and that is … TIME!! So yeah, absolutely am fine with it. The past year had given me tons of opportunities to explore on the arenas that I love like reading , traveling, enhancing my culinary skills , spending that kind of time which I really wanted with the spouse and at the same time the ‘me’ time that I’d yearned for. I continued with my passions for learning languages and enrolled myself in French & English literature.
I truly wish this newly dawned year also follows the same league of it’s predecessor. Am a non-believer of taking resolutions on the beginning of the year which will anyway go in the drain just as the day ends leave alone following it for the entire year. But the few things that I could like to see the changes in myself will be
- to continue with my reading by taking more challenges & completing at least 50-75 books this year. Whoa!! Quite ambitious :)
- to instill that kind of discipline to write more even if it’s not up to the mark.
- To reach that ideal weight by religiously walking & through diet.
- To do the work with utmost concentration and sincerity.
- To shed all those excess undesirable emotional baggage and think positive.
In a way I’ve chronicled this so I take a cue of this every time I open this page and provide with that urge to make the change happening. So, here’s to the new beginning & to a very happy new year .
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