If only I could..

Not sure if I've ever posted a forward on my blog. But after receiving this, I couldn't resist posting one which reflects the golden phase of my life :) Without much of my rants or prattles what ever.. here's what I'd received as a mail but mirrored my thoughts and re-kindled my past :)

Remembering my classmates,after few years,
My eyes were filled with tears,
Everyone now is busy a lot,
No one escaped from detiny's plot

Saw the girl whome once I thought as my best friend,
oops today she is somebody else's girl friend,
After months, remembered about her for a little while,
Heard she is happy, that made me smile.

Project reviews to Campus Interviews,
Nicknames to last bench games,
cultural rehersald to love proposals,
short term crushes to class room blushes.

Everything is fresh in our mind,
wish life could just rewind,
Let's laugh, play and rejoice,
Once again become college guys.

Chatting and laughing, we all were in elation,
till the painful moment of separation,
when it was time to part,
we returned with a heavy heart.

Today life is full of commitments,
And too many worries,
But those cherished moments,
Will live forever in our memories!!!!

If only I could go back on a time machine and relive those moments..

Sigh!!!

Friend, My Earnest Apologies….

Dear S,
I first met you during the days of my "golden phase". You were a complete stranger and we would jus meet occasionally for one of our leisure period... You were fair skinned, vivacious, enterprising and I could jus go on and on about you... I was, at that time, completely de -moralized, the trepidation of people who were good looking was so sturdy in me and that held in me reserved from you. You belonged to one of that "happening" gang from which I would completely distance myself due to the timidity of myself. But as days passed, you had initiated our amity or rather the liaison... We’d slowly become acquaintances ; we talked during the class hours; we messaged while we were apart; we’d those long hours of chatting sessions over phone ; And you were the one who introduced me to the coffee shops, plazas and the other happening hang-out places which honestly are alien land…. and slowly we’d become inseparable... But still on a remote corner of my heart, I was still fighting that freaking diffidence in me… I was unable to over come it completely... you didn’t know about it… or perhaps... I didn’t make you realize it... Time passed as our liaison grew stronger and deeper... You’d almost started confiding your’self’ to me... we were in complete revelation of each other... We found the solace in our relation ship... But yet, dear friend … I could not win over the downbeat emotion; as the time grew and with that we’d also grown and there was that awful day of separation... But still we made sure that we didn’t wobble our liaison... And one day you gave me that sweetest news of your significant other… You were jus SO into him … that you could keep raving about him even if it was a diminutive thing… I can still not forget that grin on your face with you’re already milk - fair cheeks turning pink when ever you get his call… But Dear friend, fate had other plans for us... Some how we lost in touch… It was almost a year that we were unable to commune... By then all good things had happened to you... You got married to this nice person with whom you were really in love... Truly, madly deeply…. And as a result... god had gifted you with little angel… But I wasn’t there to see all those… Am still not able to reason out as to how and why I let you go… I should have taken the least of measures for us to get back what we’d lost… perhaps.. Am I still suffering from that dread ful emotions…. Am not sure… I still hit myself very hard for what I’ve done… Is there anything that I cannot forgive myself is for loosing You… Some day or the other I believe that our paths will cross each other... And we might again have the same color in our life... But still... Am really not sure if I could muster up the courage to look into your eyes and confide everything to you...

Adhu oru kanakalam:-)

I 'd once received this message from my good old college friend which begins " gone are the days ... The stuff which it had conveyed was exactly my good old college days.... I got thinking about a lot of the stuff and that's how ended up in this post..
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On July18th 2001 was "THE DAY" in my life in which there was this sudden transition.... my first day in college!!Our's was a complete Men's college and it was only two years before they had changed it to co-ed.As soon as the college gates were wide opened infront of me, I could see only guys heads and for a moment I could not stop thinking if I were in a wrong place, but sooner as a sigh of relief I could finally trace few girls... Actually the ratio of men to women would have been say 10 : 1 and that explains the scarcity of women in our college...Our class had a strength of 48 out of which we were only 8 girls (and even that got reduced after two of them chose for the morning sessions) and should I have to really elucidate on the fun we could have had..

Since we , girls, were in less numbers so the option of finding the 'best desks' was completely ruled out , as it was already been 'attacked' by our fellow mates and so we were made to sit right under-the-nose of our lecturers. But, that was not an issue at all, coz most of our lecturers would jus turn towards the board and would keep saying things which were far behind our senses;And here we would be happily passing notes,sleep with our eyes opend and so on.We thought thousand times before we could apply for a holiday during our first year, but then we became 'matured' enough to mass bunk on our final year to watch the then hyped movie Kabhi Kushi Kabhi Gham..

The highlight of our college is our canteen!! You know.. it's like a priced poessession of our college..I would say we've one of the best canteens in the whole of chennai colleges. the food would be outclass and quite affordable. Try checking for the attendance in our canteen, and I would audaciously put forth my belongings in bet of cent percent turn out.. :-)Given the amount of space we'd, it's sure the favourite hangouts for us. And during thebreak time, we could see people from different walks of life. And I still remember how we were literally chucked out of the canteen on our last of the final year exams.. The language hours were the special hours as we'd combined classes with the other departments like Physics, Bio chemistry.. It was a time for us to relax as we really cared a damn about it.. it was more like a P.T. class during our school days..

The best part of those days was our trip to pondicherry which was self organised.. It was during this trip that we all had become one.. we got to know each other and it was out of this trip that I made few wonderful friends for life time..

I love my college days.. it was jus during those days when I'd been My'self'.Driving past those days makes me become a 'sentimental Idiot'..

Why, I'm all snify jus about writing this..

PS: As am writing this Simbu & AishwaryaRajnikanth are crooning the wonderful farewell song compode by D. Imman from the movie whistle into my ears with "Natpae natpae..."