Kabhi Alvida Naa Kehna..

No more those long hours of drowning in to the system; No more of those frantic calls from the clients; No more gossiping with friends over the cup of coffee; No more of those long sometimes sensical and many a times non-sensical meetings and there are many more which could be added to the never-ending list. It’s for a life of about three years to which I’d bid adieu yesterday with a heavy heart. Yes, now you are now reading this space of an educated, skilled unemployed youth :). I was fresh out of college when I'd joined work and I was this all this over- enthusiastic girl who was all geared up for a new challenge to face. Right from then life was a roller coaster ride with sea of joyful , cherishing and at times depressing waves touching me. It has made me what am today. And this phase of life did give in that confidence and it DID bring that pride in me. On the flip side, like any other it had its own unfavourable effects on me. There are a lot of things in life that I’d given a miss, some which are irrevocable, irreconcilable. I crossed the threshold of my most imperative phase of life with a hasten. I’d become work alcoholic without even me becoming conscious about it. Under stably, I cannot blame work, as in, for it as should have been ‘me’ who should have struck a balance between work and life. On the whole it was a real ‘experience’ which can be looked back and cherish those once-for-all moments.
And that also means that there’s a new beginning not only on the professional side but on the geographical side which was the sole reason behind this ‘unemployed’ state of mind. Yes, I would be soon go away leaving behind my motherland; my culture; my heritage on the whole.

More to come on this .... :)

If only I could..

Not sure if I've ever posted a forward on my blog. But after receiving this, I couldn't resist posting one which reflects the golden phase of my life :) Without much of my rants or prattles what ever.. here's what I'd received as a mail but mirrored my thoughts and re-kindled my past :)

Remembering my classmates,after few years,
My eyes were filled with tears,
Everyone now is busy a lot,
No one escaped from detiny's plot

Saw the girl whome once I thought as my best friend,
oops today she is somebody else's girl friend,
After months, remembered about her for a little while,
Heard she is happy, that made me smile.

Project reviews to Campus Interviews,
Nicknames to last bench games,
cultural rehersald to love proposals,
short term crushes to class room blushes.

Everything is fresh in our mind,
wish life could just rewind,
Let's laugh, play and rejoice,
Once again become college guys.

Chatting and laughing, we all were in elation,
till the painful moment of separation,
when it was time to part,
we returned with a heavy heart.

Today life is full of commitments,
And too many worries,
But those cherished moments,
Will live forever in our memories!!!!

If only I could go back on a time machine and relive those moments..

Sigh!!!

Am hurt… deeply...

Like any daughter, My Dad is my Hero. He’s always been a calm, composed, passionate person and on the 25 years of this life journey I’ve never seen Appa loosing his cool... I’ve always tried to live like him... Appa’s main motto in life which he also follows conscientiously is "the more you give... the more you grow". I’ve seen him live up with his motto even if it’d cost him a fortune… And by some means I’ve imbibed this quality of his in me… I’ve always accepted things as it comes and have never really wanted it the Way I wanted… Many a times, right from my childhood ,I’ve been taken for a ride … I will constantly face bullying , bickering and on … but as a kid, I was not very vexed … I was jus so blameless that I could jus dust away from my shoulders and move on …. I’ve been and am paying a great deal even today… This one eminence has so developed in me that am now unable to completely rip it off from after having paid off profoundly… Though my inner strength has grown stronger, but there have been times when it will lead me to the boundaries of aggravation… as high to the extent of cursing, abusing, assaulting myself for having been so naïve... There have been many such instances in the recent past which has testified this eminence and the one in the recent past has unquestionably distressed me… Too many things jus ran on my mind... with too many questions which were predominantly WHY AGAIN ME???? I couldn’t take the effects jus like that… I didn’t feel like talking to anyone… I didn’t want to see anyone’s face… On the first place, I jus didn’t know how to react when I was nailed for something which I did that could have been any girl’s yearning … There was no one around for me to vent out… For the first time ever I experienced the seclusion among the swarm… I wanted to run to my mother hide my face under her lap and cry my heart out... I wanted to cuddle to my dad’s shoulder to experience his warmth… I’ve never missed them so bad in life… and I realized what they are to me… It was a revelation. It has left behind a irreparable scar in me… and has shaken my inner strength… appallingly. Though everything seems fine but still at the bottom of my heart…. AM ALL HURT…. DEEPLY….

Raja Ko rani Se Pyar ho gaya…. :-) PART-1

And surely not in the pehli nazar… It’s been more than a year since I knew this wonderful person Mr.K; a year since we got engaged; and above all it’s been six months of our nuptial. Ok, as I was surprisingly idle at home and was flipping thro our wedding album for the N th time, I was jus re-living those moments.

The 13th of Jan 2008 was the usual lazing Sunday morning until I received a call from this prospective to-be groom. He’d wanted to meet me in person before we could actually get into the proposal. And amidst lot of anxiety, I was getting prepared to meet a guy whom I’d never ever thought of his existence before. And there my mom was all over her heels and she was actually even more hyped than I could be and was giving away her thoughtful tips to me as though she was preparing me for the board exams. I personally was emotion-less!! As I really didn’t know how and what to react, probably I was cursing this entire system of arranged marriages. I didn’t have an ounce of clue of what exactly was it going to happen there or the least what should I really talk to this guy. With an unclear vision and mindful of thoughts I stepped into that meeting place with a delay of fifteen minutes against our scheduled time. And yeah, there THE GUY was,
We’d a small introduction and I spoke fewer words and then there yours truly jus got back to her shell and the Guy did the entire talking. We spoke about a lot of things and finally the Guy wound the discussion by saying; “ See, Iam very slow in deciding things and probably will take some time to decide on the same.. till then I think we can be friends:. And that was the signing off message from the guy. (Oh God!! What’s really happening around me!! I’d been to meet this guy who was supposedly the prospective groom to be but then here’s the guy informing that till he decides on things he wants jus to FRIENDS… Can imagine the kind of bewilderment I could have gone thro’) .. Ok I’d to come and announce my already apprehensive Mom regarding this meet.. And as guessed I gave her an even more baffled reply of our decision.. as I’d to put a big full stop to her never-ending questions .. After a day or two of this, I again received a message from the Guy saying he would like to meet me regarding his decision and finally we met and guess what!!! The guy declared his interest on proceeding with the proposal.. and guess what would have been the reply from yours truly… A Week’s time for me to decide….;-) well that was really not a vengeful act but I really wanted time to think as I’d not thought about the entire thing for the two days.. I didn’t want to.. Because I was really not sure of what the outcome of that meeting would be.. So I jus didn’t want to be an early bird and decide on things , if every thing turned the other way round( yeah I know I was lil pessimistic about that) But now, I’d to think about lot of things but my main concern was supporting my parents and my sponsor child… because to an extent both would be a life long commitment.. so whoever accepts me should accept for this even… But then again he crux of this situation was like if I don’t again sit and talk with him .. I might know what exactly runs thro’ his mind… so , again I called him and spoke my mind and wanted his thoughts on this.. And to my surprise.. he readily accepted it and was like “so what?? Jus like am supporting my family you could even.. so I don’t think this should be an issue…”

Even after this will yours truly delay the proceedings…J NEVER!! And so finally we gave the final go-ahead to our respective families… Yes, all this while the families were never in the picture and it was purely OUR decision to go ahead…
And then………

To Be Continued….

Puthum Puthu Bhoomi Vendum……

I happened to listen to one of those programs on radio where the public can call and confess to the RJ about their problems which they could not share with any of their fellow mates. Undoubtedly 90% of the callers will talk about their relationship problems..

I was particularly flummoxed when one caller was literally sobbing because his girl friend had not spoken to him for months together over a small misunderstanding..

And with those kind of news that’s going all around me of the breakups, broken engagements and stuff.. Has seriously left me in conjecture if all this was worth the whining?? And guess what; most of whiners will be men. I’ve always wondered what makes this man-woman relationship an intricate one of all the other ones. But I’ve to admit one thing that, from my personal observations, it’s always the men who’s being embittered on the whole process. Am actually ashamed to say this, but I believe that’s the scenario in today’s fast-food- based relationships. Well not that am advocating for men here, but it’s so pathetic to the way they are being handled. And for most, the reason is very simple of being a victim to the “family influence”. Oh C’mon, give me a break!!! Will you be able to accept the same if a guy decides to abandon you for the same rationale? Wouldn’t all hell break loose and that guy and his family been stoned for being a butcher of woman’s rights? Here, I would like to put as a disclaimer that am talking about that woman who is not worth talking about their rights. And as always rights are being misunderstood. Does the woman activists on the street who parade and fight for these kind of rights?? If yes, then am proud to call myself as a one who do not believe in woman rights.. Why on earth do we've to lead our life with such complexities when we have much better options of leading it peacefully?

Of all that has been said before, am not trying to portray a picture-perfect- woman of Myself. But maybe am playing cards safely. After all that I’ve seen and heard, I’ve started to really not trust in those relationships. I may not have very adventurous stories for me to tell my grand children but at least I can look straight in their eyes and say that I’ve not injured anyone without a feel of guilt.

Engayum, Eppodhum Sangeetham Sandhosham…. :-)

For some books are passion, for some surfing, chatting and so would be passion.. But for most am sure Music would be the passion. (Well here, by passion I mean something to do as far as recreation is considered.) And to me, it’s something more.. Like one of the Rajini’s famous dialogue goes… “I eat Music, I sleep Music and walk Music.” What started as jus a Stress Buster turned out to be a very integral part of Me. Music has to be with Me wherever I go and in what ever I do. Here are the few of my picks from my everlasting list of all time favorite hits:

• To begin with, Poove sem Poove from Solla thudikkuthu mansau:

This is my child hood fav song. Man, Am jus so in love with this song. It’s one among the best and beautiful compositions of Ilayaraja Sir.And above all. The singing Maestro, K.J.Yesudas sir’s divine voice. Even now when I listen to this song on ear phones, I drive past my child hood memories. This is one such song which makes your soul calm and shows the true happiness within us.

• Thalattuthe Vanam…

I consider this song to be one of the best of Ilayaraja’s Romnatic hits. This song itself describes the story ina nut shell. And not to forget about Janaki Amma’s rendition of the song. She would start the song with a husky and quixotic voice and would maintain it through the song keeping up with the pace and the mood of the song. The music and the voice would mutually complement one another. Each time I hear this song, I would sense a new feel of emotion which will surely harmonize with my mood at that time.

• Azhagae Sugama…. from Paarthale paravasam :

And this is Rahman sir’s one of the brilliant song ever composed by him.One could die for the last few minutes of the song. Well am really not gonna delve into the review of this master piece song.Any music lover would surely feel the soul of the song.

• Udaya Udaya…. from Udaya

This is again an under rated song of Rahman Sir’s.. But, Jus listening to this soft romantic number on earphones on a nice breezy day with gentle rain and cup of not-so- hot tea and then am sure this will take you places….

• Ae Hairathe…. from Guru

Well, I’ve jus deeply fallen in love with this song. The voices of Hariharan ji and Alka ji have so blended well that you could really not tend to stay away from the music. And not to forget about Rahman sir’s small but the best part which goes like….. dum dara dum dara…. WOW!!! If there’s any other jargaon to it.. please use it..

Poi solla kudathu kadhali… from Run..

One of the best of Vidyasagar sir’s music… And not to forget Hariharan Ji’s rendition of the song…Few songs can be much appreciated only if could hear even the minutest of the sound… and this song is one… This is My all time favourite one…

Well.. well this post is going a too long one with my hit lists… and see that much how is I like.. I can jus go on and on and on.. but for now let me stop here and I shall again come back with another list and not to forget about my favourite musicians… :-)

To Be continued…..

Adhu oru kanakalam:-)

I 'd once received this message from my good old college friend which begins " gone are the days ... The stuff which it had conveyed was exactly my good old college days.... I got thinking about a lot of the stuff and that's how ended up in this post..
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On July18th 2001 was "THE DAY" in my life in which there was this sudden transition.... my first day in college!!Our's was a complete Men's college and it was only two years before they had changed it to co-ed.As soon as the college gates were wide opened infront of me, I could see only guys heads and for a moment I could not stop thinking if I were in a wrong place, but sooner as a sigh of relief I could finally trace few girls... Actually the ratio of men to women would have been say 10 : 1 and that explains the scarcity of women in our college...Our class had a strength of 48 out of which we were only 8 girls (and even that got reduced after two of them chose for the morning sessions) and should I have to really elucidate on the fun we could have had..

Since we , girls, were in less numbers so the option of finding the 'best desks' was completely ruled out , as it was already been 'attacked' by our fellow mates and so we were made to sit right under-the-nose of our lecturers. But, that was not an issue at all, coz most of our lecturers would jus turn towards the board and would keep saying things which were far behind our senses;And here we would be happily passing notes,sleep with our eyes opend and so on.We thought thousand times before we could apply for a holiday during our first year, but then we became 'matured' enough to mass bunk on our final year to watch the then hyped movie Kabhi Kushi Kabhi Gham..

The highlight of our college is our canteen!! You know.. it's like a priced poessession of our college..I would say we've one of the best canteens in the whole of chennai colleges. the food would be outclass and quite affordable. Try checking for the attendance in our canteen, and I would audaciously put forth my belongings in bet of cent percent turn out.. :-)Given the amount of space we'd, it's sure the favourite hangouts for us. And during thebreak time, we could see people from different walks of life. And I still remember how we were literally chucked out of the canteen on our last of the final year exams.. The language hours were the special hours as we'd combined classes with the other departments like Physics, Bio chemistry.. It was a time for us to relax as we really cared a damn about it.. it was more like a P.T. class during our school days..

The best part of those days was our trip to pondicherry which was self organised.. It was during this trip that we all had become one.. we got to know each other and it was out of this trip that I made few wonderful friends for life time..

I love my college days.. it was jus during those days when I'd been My'self'.Driving past those days makes me become a 'sentimental Idiot'..

Why, I'm all snify jus about writing this..

PS: As am writing this Simbu & AishwaryaRajnikanth are crooning the wonderful farewell song compode by D. Imman from the movie whistle into my ears with "Natpae natpae..."

Being ME!!!

Come this monday and here am gonna turn twenty three!!! jus staggered by the thought of it...
23 years have rolled out in being ME!!!! Pondering over the thought of how life has been these years... could not help myself in going thro' a nostalgic trip....

I was a very abnormal child.. ya. u heard it right... Abnormal child...( may be still Am:-))
well, I could really say I'd a very bad childhood days.... All I tasted during those days was hatred, complexes, ego ,bullying, mocking, frustration on and on and on... given a chance I would never ever will opt for the same.. But the most wonderful thing that has happened to me are my buddies whom I still hold close to my heart....

Then came my most wonderful phase of life... College days :-) put me on a time machine and order me to go back in life... I would surely go back to those golden days.... friends, class rooms , lecturers, my language classes, mass bunking, those humpty number of holidays, and above all my canteen...... WOW!!!!! I can jus go on and on and on and on....this phase of life is one which is worth writing a long post... and I would surely do...

And then came the this part of where I realised ME... this happened when my mom had to join my dad in seychelles and I was left back alone to deal my life... well that was lil crucial for my coz, I'd to do a balancing act between my studies, project, job interviews and also to take care of the house... well it was disgusting. frustrating ... but now when I look back... I think I could take some pride in me for having dealt it with zeal...:-)

In a nutshell, life these years has been a roller -coaster ride and now Am really not sure of what god has in store for me the rest of life, but whatever it is having full faith in the almighty lemme give it a chance...

BACK WITH A BANG!!!

And hey I know that this is what I would always tell myself after I would come back from a very long hibernation.... Each time I would write a post I would promise myself that I would regularly blog but some how I would never really not keep that up..for what ever reasons it might be...

The last six months was full of abuzz with tons of activities and tremendous changes in life... all for good..:-)

1. Not long before had I written this post cribbing about my first job and here am settled in my dream job and happily working for eleven hours.
2. The most awaited event of the year, the new entrant to our family finally happened bringing in all the joy, happiness.. promoting me to a new post ,CHITTHI... my darling sis gave birth to a beautiful baby girl... this is best thing which could ever happen to our family... :-)
3. The next best thing which could happen was to my best friend as she had finally found her significant other and happilly settled in life.. only to look more plumpier:-)
4. And finallly the D-Day had arrived for me to virtually get the touch og the tiny thing for whom I'd been waiting for almost 15 months.... Yes, after a long break of 3 and half years I saw my sis, my bro-in-law and ultimately, our bundle of joy.... KAJU:-)

The above events is worth writing a post itself which would surely do in coming days.. specially about our Kaju...:-)

Looking forward to keep up my promise..... and am sure I would..

God's Own Child!!!

Yeah... that's the title given to me by none other than yours truly :-) Well, why shouldn't I.. when I have all the reasons for a self-proclamation... Family and friends are the imperative factors in any individual 's life.... which is very true in my life.I've jus handful of friends whom i can truly rely upon for anything and everything under the sun. TG,C,S,V, are the integral part of mine... Sharing 14 years of realtionship ... I hold them tight closely to my heart and i go down the memory lane to my good old schoo days.
Tg : My darling :)she's one girl who had never failed to amuse me with kind of mellowness she would face life, and have never seen loosing her cool whatever may be the intensity of problems ..even with so many years rolled out.. she still does it.. but if truth to be told, i really love the moments when she would unexpectedly bring out the hidden child in her.. I LOVE YOU di.. for whatever you are...

C The most respectable friend i have.. With tons of responsibilities sitting right on top of his head, I've never seen him in a goaded or in a dreary mood.. believe me!!! though the almighty has been lil injustice, he's always accepted it with a welcoming and confident smile... You go ahead da!! am really proud of you...:-)

S My partner in all the mischevious operations!! Infact s and me were friends from second standard... Forthrightly, it was both of us who were the happy-go-lucky ones of our gang..Though this guy would seem to be playful.. he's always been focussed.. n that's the reason he's now the member of the most privileged institution ICAI.hmmm.. ya you heard it right.. am now a proud friend of an young chartered account:-)...

V she's the newbie of our gang,who's gonna become the integral part of s :-).and now my only wish is let the almighty give rest three of us the same kind of life-partners.:-)
I cherish those moments we spent together and they are still afresh in my memories ... which will always remain till the curtains of my life comes to a draw finally... you are my priced possessions...
Like someone wrote :
Vannangalaga thanitthu vanthom...
Vanvil aga seirundhu nindrom...
We all met as strangers,and as the time flew, became the best est of friends... saw each other grow from child to adult.. and would still see the transformation with generations coming....

LIFE IS LIKE THAT!!

For all those who wondered where was I for the past six months(If only someone had really done!!;-) ), well most of the time trying unsuccessfully to understand the nitty-gritties of life.. For a girl like me, who always refused to come out of the "protecting blanket" of family's love and affection; who was an agnostic about people's behaviour, or rather, "misbehaviour"; who was made to view the world with a pink glass to see ONLY good things around me!!! life post-job has surely taken a topsy - turvy turn changing the color of the glasses with more of grey and less of pink.It has jus made to realise the saying that "All that glitters are not gold!! The scathful and inexplicable nature of fellow people has jus made me to realise how tough is it to be a clean slate, wherein people can jus come write over whatever THEY feel and jus get away with not really bothering about the marks they leave behind.With the predominance of sarcasm around, ignominy ,muffling on my stance for sure has been the testimonials of my change in the approach of viewing the world through grey glasses.And with none around to shoulder and understand when it's really a necessitate,life's totally gone rampant. what do these people derive of bickering? Happiness?? If yes, does it really exist for long?These are the few unanswered questions and am really trying hard to find an answer. I wonder how people can jus muck things for others and get away with it and the people at the receiving end are jus left behind flabbergasted . Sometimes, am really not able to resist the feeling of being unfit to insert myself in this world. I've paid a higher cost for having been so oblivious of life and now,better to late than to never have decided not to succumb to these kind of contemptible pressures and fight back the raising odds and do good to myself. And then continue my living in the hope that all bad things will have to come to an end.Hmmm.. i could really not help myself from an yet- another- cribbing post.But what to do LIFE"S LIKE THAT!!!;-)

THE DEVIL RETURNS! :-)

yes... am back after a real loooong time.Well.... life has taken lil twist during this tenure.it all started when i'd to take a break for my exams.for me exams had always been a nightmare, specially my maths exams! i used to have a tough time in remembering those formulaes and so on...more than the subject it was those frantic looks of my sis which threatened me more.coz, mom always put me on to my sis to teach me maths and my sis hates this job to the core(because i was so dumb in maths) and she would try all means to get rid of the "capital punishment" given to her which would ultimately end up with a quarrel between mom and sis.and there yours truly would escape without noticed:-). ironically, the subject which i majored in my under graduation was MATHS! this came as a surprise to whole of my life... hmmmm... but that's life right? "Expect the Unexpected".Fortunately my management studies are more interesting coz, i don't have to sit and load my brain forcefully.it jus requires our analytical and logical reasoning power, which i love to do! am jus waiting for my results with fingers crossed. lemme hope for the best. And the next big thing was the disappointment i got when my sister after so many thoughts juggling she finally declared that they weren't coming down to India on dec 30th.i'd so many plans about their trip.it was like we would be totally out of station for atleast a month,and there were also plans that we would meet our parents in seychelles but all that was completely shattered. well, it really took a long time for me to accept it, but again as always happen i was forced to accept .

but i think it was a blessing in disguise.coz, it was the same day that i'd to attend a placement interview.and now am placed.there are so many "firsts" in my life. My first interview, My first job, and so on. but again my complaint here is i didn't have anyone to share. i carried back lot of stories, exciting things which happened during my first day on the job only to realise that i didn't have any one to share with.for that matter, i still don't know how my folks are reacting to it.am not able to figure out what exactly they feel with that short duration over phone.am missing them so badly here.anyways as always, lemme try to accept this too.

A SPECIAL MEESAGE TO SPECIAL PERSON

I LOVE YOU....


for so many reasons,
it would take me all day
to list them....


I LOVE YOU....


because you make me laugh
until i can hardly breathe,

because all i've to do is look at you a certain way
and you know exactly what i'm thinking,

because i can trust you to understand even the things
i'm still trying to figure out...


I LOVE YOU...

because you're real,
all the time,
about everything,
no matter what,
and you help bring out the best in me...

over and over again,
you are truly an AMAZING person

and am proud to call you THE BEST FRIEND of mine..

and for many more reasons, there's no wonder that i celebrate the arrival of my "friend" on this earth nearly 26 years before and that too a day before so that i be the first person to wish on your BIRTHDAY..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AKKA....

AN UNFORGETTABLE WEEKEND

well... am sure this weekend would have been an unforgettable weekend for most of the chennaites.as a well known factor, chennai witnessed incessant rain from morning till night and it was in this same rain i got drenched for the first time ever in my life:-).i felt like dancing as the heroine of "mazhai",this was somewhere around eleven'o clock in the morning.i was enjoying this climate throughout the day without knowing it's after-effects.it should be around 3.00 am when i woke up to hear the reverberation of people in my colony.but i pay any heed to these reverberations coz it's like a common thing in the area i reside.but in the morning i opened my sit-out door only to see my area surrounded by water,it was as though i was in an island and i was also confused when i saw several women and children lying on the corridors of our building and my neighbouring building too.then later on i heard from my neighbour that flood have washed their homes and now our corridors have become their dwelling places.they had absolutely nothing with them not even the basic facilities they need to have.it was so painful for me to see people having their food on roads ,literally on roads, coz there was no other open space to accomodate these many people at the same time.and moreover this was an unexpected one and so neither the people nor the local governing bodies were prepared to face this kind of situation.and for me, this is the first time am being introduced to these kind of emergency situations and so i was little emotionally moved when i saw all that happening jus infront of my eyes. purely by god's grace there was not a single life loss reported.the corporation's work was really commendable here,normalcy was restored in just about 24 hours of the devastation.but the power cut which lasted for complete four days was the most intolerable thing.i was completely out of touch with the outer world for these four days.it was like almost my life had come to a stand-still without power.obviously,because of power cut for four days, we ran short of water .atleast to stay connected with my sis and parents,i needed mobile or landline which also ran out of battery(my landline is that CDMA connection which runs on battery too),so i'd charge my mobile in a browsing centre.Man!serioulsy i'd a tough time in managing things,but this time am not gonna complain my life coz i've learnt how blessed am.

LIFE WITHOUT MOM....

It's been almost two and a half weeks since my mom flew to seychelles with my dad.And from then on it's yours truly who is managing the whole show,ie, right from managing house-hold chores to my official and personal needs.this is the most unbelievable and miraculous thing which can happen to me: leading a life sans my mom. I was this girl who would depend upon her for every little thing i do, right from what channel i need to watch to decide whether i need to attend my that day's classes or not. if you'd by now thought that am a school going girl, pardon me, am pursuing my management studies. somehow, i grew under her shelter completely.Honestly i liked it too. But the last two weeks has taught loads of things to me.It has taught how selfishly i've dealt my mom and how i've taken an undue advantage on her under the protective cover of being her daughter.But now the entire scenario has changed. i wake up with thought of what all things i've to complete for that day.i've begun to be more organised and try to do my work independantly in an effective and efficient manner.
I do have some complaints about this way of life. sometimes it's highly irritating and frustrating to do everything wholly by me. but it's this period which had taught me some valuable lessons in my life apart from what i said above. i've realised the value of relationships. for the past two weeks ,my sis makes it a point to call me twice a day!(for those wondering where she's.. she's in US right now) she's very much worried about me here.my parents call up atleast once in two days and not to forget my friends, they are keeping me occupied by messaging and calls till i go to sleep.am feeling elated about all these because i always complain of loneliness and i also have a feeling that know one cares about me. this thought of mine have proved that am wrong.:-)

But yes, to me, nothing can compensate my mom's presence.

I MISS YOU MOM..