A SPECIAL MEESAGE TO SPECIAL PERSON

I LOVE YOU....


for so many reasons,
it would take me all day
to list them....


I LOVE YOU....


because you make me laugh
until i can hardly breathe,

because all i've to do is look at you a certain way
and you know exactly what i'm thinking,

because i can trust you to understand even the things
i'm still trying to figure out...


I LOVE YOU...

because you're real,
all the time,
about everything,
no matter what,
and you help bring out the best in me...

over and over again,
you are truly an AMAZING person

and am proud to call you THE BEST FRIEND of mine..

and for many more reasons, there's no wonder that i celebrate the arrival of my "friend" on this earth nearly 26 years before and that too a day before so that i be the first person to wish on your BIRTHDAY..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AKKA....

AN UNFORGETTABLE WEEKEND

well... am sure this weekend would have been an unforgettable weekend for most of the chennaites.as a well known factor, chennai witnessed incessant rain from morning till night and it was in this same rain i got drenched for the first time ever in my life:-).i felt like dancing as the heroine of "mazhai",this was somewhere around eleven'o clock in the morning.i was enjoying this climate throughout the day without knowing it's after-effects.it should be around 3.00 am when i woke up to hear the reverberation of people in my colony.but i pay any heed to these reverberations coz it's like a common thing in the area i reside.but in the morning i opened my sit-out door only to see my area surrounded by water,it was as though i was in an island and i was also confused when i saw several women and children lying on the corridors of our building and my neighbouring building too.then later on i heard from my neighbour that flood have washed their homes and now our corridors have become their dwelling places.they had absolutely nothing with them not even the basic facilities they need to have.it was so painful for me to see people having their food on roads ,literally on roads, coz there was no other open space to accomodate these many people at the same time.and moreover this was an unexpected one and so neither the people nor the local governing bodies were prepared to face this kind of situation.and for me, this is the first time am being introduced to these kind of emergency situations and so i was little emotionally moved when i saw all that happening jus infront of my eyes. purely by god's grace there was not a single life loss reported.the corporation's work was really commendable here,normalcy was restored in just about 24 hours of the devastation.but the power cut which lasted for complete four days was the most intolerable thing.i was completely out of touch with the outer world for these four days.it was like almost my life had come to a stand-still without power.obviously,because of power cut for four days, we ran short of water .atleast to stay connected with my sis and parents,i needed mobile or landline which also ran out of battery(my landline is that CDMA connection which runs on battery too),so i'd charge my mobile in a browsing centre.Man!serioulsy i'd a tough time in managing things,but this time am not gonna complain my life coz i've learnt how blessed am.

HUH....

Life has now become a humdrum for me.It's real hard to play so many roles at the same time.as each day is passing my level of responsiblities are also growing with it. finding real hard to cope with these changes , but surely managing things in a much better way.wondering why all this frustrated thoughts, well.. it was jus that i was having an hectic schedule for the past five days.as i was in the verge of completion of the project had to finish off with my pending work, put my papers in an organised manner, complete my final formalities and finally report to my superior. since this my very first project i'd to put in lot of efforts and had to work meticulously till the end.and after all this , i reached home only to see it in a total dumped state.even the supposedly "booth bungalows" in tamil movies would have been far more better when compared to my home.when i started to clean ,i was wondering how i'd survived for the past three weeks amidst this mess. Now every thing is OVER.but truly, i've never been this occupied in life.now i know what life is .

but from now on am gonna be on my study hols for the exams which would begin by Dec 24th.and this also implies that the arrival of my bro-in-law and sis is also fast approaching:-).this is the only thing which is keeping up my spirits alive.am jus keeping my fingers crossed to hug and cuddle in their arms and shed out my responsibilties and be myself atleast for a month.but before that i still have a long way to go in cleaning my home to make it a presentable one before my bro-in-law steps in. because he's one person who does not compromise on cleanliness even for a million dollar deal.i still remember the day when it was jus few hours of his arrival from UK, the first thing he did was to clear his baggage and put those things in their respective places and at the same time cleared off the mess in his room.he was continuously working till he'd cleaned his comb which he'd used on his stay at UK.though he would not expect this level from me, but i should atleast try to satisfy his minimum expectation.hope i do that:-).

TRUE EMPOWERMENT...

Few months back when i was doing my usual thing- to flip through the channels, suddenly i stopped to my surprise to watch a tamil-speaking woman on BBC.she was explaining the process of how she had arranged her daughter's wedding without the help from her husband. while i was trying to figure out what exactly the program was all about, the reporter was talking about some concept called SELF HELP GROUPS. till that time , i hardly had any idea about these groups.though the program did not give me the whole idea about these groups, it did throw some light on it.short time after that, to my amazement i was informed by my professor that we were going to a place called Ranipet to do a project on that same Self help groups. till we'd reached that place i neither had any idea of what that place was nor my job .the only thing which kept up my spirits was the thought of meeting those women who are actively participating in those groups.A NGO called thirumalai charitable trust had sponsored our trip and it was for this trust we were doing that project.

In the morning, we were briefed about the whole concept of this self help groups and it's benefits.we were given a small presentation right from the history of these groups to the structure and functions of these groups.i was really zapped to know that these self help groups are making waves in my own state,TN(i was lil guilty that i didn't even know this much about my state:-)). this introductory session itself lasted till evening and then finally my most awaited session arrived. we were divided into two groups to meet the beneficiaries, ie, the members of those groups. there were about 108 groups from that place and it's neighbouring places with totally about 25,000 women participating on the whole. and we had a chance to meet one whole group which had about 25 women.i was really astonished to see those complete "village- bred" women flashing a confident and self estmeed smile on their faces.all these women are into some kind of occupation,though most of them had safely opted to work from home for example, making of incense sticks which does not require much of their time.they were confident in handling both their home and their business.when i asked about their family cooperation, specially from their husbands, majority of them gave their reply by maintaining a "dignified silence".yet i could see the difference that the concept of self help groups have given them.i could feel the true sense of Women Empowerment airing in every moment i spent with those truly confident women.It was a real experience for me.

Apart from those emotional notes, i did see some lapses in this concept.of all those, the major concerned one was that the loans which are lent to these women mainly goes in to meet their personal needs rather than indulging in any of the income-generating activity. if this is not mended, then the main objective of SELF HELP GROUPS goes unnoticed.hope they might change over a period of time.

LIFE WITHOUT MOM....

It's been almost two and a half weeks since my mom flew to seychelles with my dad.And from then on it's yours truly who is managing the whole show,ie, right from managing house-hold chores to my official and personal needs.this is the most unbelievable and miraculous thing which can happen to me: leading a life sans my mom. I was this girl who would depend upon her for every little thing i do, right from what channel i need to watch to decide whether i need to attend my that day's classes or not. if you'd by now thought that am a school going girl, pardon me, am pursuing my management studies. somehow, i grew under her shelter completely.Honestly i liked it too. But the last two weeks has taught loads of things to me.It has taught how selfishly i've dealt my mom and how i've taken an undue advantage on her under the protective cover of being her daughter.But now the entire scenario has changed. i wake up with thought of what all things i've to complete for that day.i've begun to be more organised and try to do my work independantly in an effective and efficient manner.
I do have some complaints about this way of life. sometimes it's highly irritating and frustrating to do everything wholly by me. but it's this period which had taught me some valuable lessons in my life apart from what i said above. i've realised the value of relationships. for the past two weeks ,my sis makes it a point to call me twice a day!(for those wondering where she's.. she's in US right now) she's very much worried about me here.my parents call up atleast once in two days and not to forget my friends, they are keeping me occupied by messaging and calls till i go to sleep.am feeling elated about all these because i always complain of loneliness and i also have a feeling that know one cares about me. this thought of mine have proved that am wrong.:-)

But yes, to me, nothing can compensate my mom's presence.

I MISS YOU MOM..

FINALLY.....

After a prolonged insistence from my sis, i've finally decided to enter into the world of blog to shell out my thoughts and ideas!it's been a real loooong time since i'd written something off my academics.if my guess is right, i last wrote for my school competition(though i lost it!:-) ).
now, i really want an outlet for all my thoughts and i know this is the best way for it.so, lemme start here and try to build on this.