Happy New Year!!!

Now that there's one more year drawing the curtains to close and in the verge of a brand new year,
I wish every one a Very happy and Prosperous New Year ahead with all your dreams coming true and the almighty showering every one with loads and loads of love.:-)

I, Me,Myself

You Inner Gender is Female

You're sensitive, caring, and willing to connect with anyone who's open to you.You make friends easily, and you enjoy all sorts of conversations.You understand most people you meet - better than they understand themselves. You're totally a woman... or at the very least, your soul is female.

What's" Your Inner Gender?

Courtesy: IBH:-)

Kalam Thuje Salam....

Is there any person who is most widely respected, loved, adored , celebrated and whatnot unanimously by all walks of life.. well if this question was asked a decade ago, maybe we could have thought a lot and ultimatelly end up in a no-answer reaction.. but now.. even a kid could give his name effortlessly.. and that's Dr. Kalam. The phenomenal transition from the scientist-teacher-president is any normal man's dream...

I'd really not preferred for Dr. Kalam to become a president in the irst place itself.. yes, true, it's because we all know what role a President play in a Democratic country... The elucidation of his dediaction in whatever he does his presidency period.. He'd maintained the dignity of the country's highest position during the times when politicians were constantly trying to drag him to this political gutters... He'd proved that he was not a puppet by returning the office of profit bill back to the the government who had actually proposed his name for the presidency candidature..At any given point of time, he commanded respect from every one with his simplicity, candor and he'd carried himself with a zeal.

With all this , I'd really not liked even the idea of Dr. Kalam's second term.. And now that it's not happening, like Kalam had mentioned before there is 'something' else which is calling him. His passion.. teaching.. and there a whole generation is waiting for him to lead and work collectively to make his vision .. or rather.. his Dream.. to come true ..

Welcome Back Kalam.. Let's begin our journey..

Adhu oru kanakalam:-)

I 'd once received this message from my good old college friend which begins " gone are the days ... The stuff which it had conveyed was exactly my good old college days.... I got thinking about a lot of the stuff and that's how ended up in this post..
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On July18th 2001 was "THE DAY" in my life in which there was this sudden transition.... my first day in college!!Our's was a complete Men's college and it was only two years before they had changed it to co-ed.As soon as the college gates were wide opened infront of me, I could see only guys heads and for a moment I could not stop thinking if I were in a wrong place, but sooner as a sigh of relief I could finally trace few girls... Actually the ratio of men to women would have been say 10 : 1 and that explains the scarcity of women in our college...Our class had a strength of 48 out of which we were only 8 girls (and even that got reduced after two of them chose for the morning sessions) and should I have to really elucidate on the fun we could have had..

Since we , girls, were in less numbers so the option of finding the 'best desks' was completely ruled out , as it was already been 'attacked' by our fellow mates and so we were made to sit right under-the-nose of our lecturers. But, that was not an issue at all, coz most of our lecturers would jus turn towards the board and would keep saying things which were far behind our senses;And here we would be happily passing notes,sleep with our eyes opend and so on.We thought thousand times before we could apply for a holiday during our first year, but then we became 'matured' enough to mass bunk on our final year to watch the then hyped movie Kabhi Kushi Kabhi Gham..

The highlight of our college is our canteen!! You know.. it's like a priced poessession of our college..I would say we've one of the best canteens in the whole of chennai colleges. the food would be outclass and quite affordable. Try checking for the attendance in our canteen, and I would audaciously put forth my belongings in bet of cent percent turn out.. :-)Given the amount of space we'd, it's sure the favourite hangouts for us. And during thebreak time, we could see people from different walks of life. And I still remember how we were literally chucked out of the canteen on our last of the final year exams.. The language hours were the special hours as we'd combined classes with the other departments like Physics, Bio chemistry.. It was a time for us to relax as we really cared a damn about it.. it was more like a P.T. class during our school days..

The best part of those days was our trip to pondicherry which was self organised.. It was during this trip that we all had become one.. we got to know each other and it was out of this trip that I made few wonderful friends for life time..

I love my college days.. it was jus during those days when I'd been My'self'.Driving past those days makes me become a 'sentimental Idiot'..

Why, I'm all snify jus about writing this..

PS: As am writing this Simbu & AishwaryaRajnikanth are crooning the wonderful farewell song compode by D. Imman from the movie whistle into my ears with "Natpae natpae..."

Pray For Me brother!!!

No it's no was a review to the wonderful song composed and sung by the legend!!!! It's this perturbing news articles in the past few days .... Lot has been talked and written about this but still, parts of India is still oblivious about it and still the government is yet to eradicate the stigma related to HIV and it's victims. News such as this
explains the hard- hit truth of the real INDIA.. This is was a true eye opener for a person like me who was gloating about my country's roboust growth in all fields, but it took a while for me to accept that this so-called "feel-good-factor" projected by the politicians during the times of their power hunt was just an illusion and it's not that I believed in those promos but jus had a simple pleasure of thinking it to be one heaven. But here, the government cannot be wholly responsible for the this scenario. With this new age of media revolution, things like these are exposed in a much bigger way, giving no room for the detractors of humanity to find a loop hole, in that way, three cheers to Media!!! Like a very famous quote goes,"only if both the hands get together the noise would explode".. and so , only if people become more civilised and they decide to drive away the ignorance, such atrocities against human would completely washed away. Let me hope that atleast my next gen do not go thro' all this and atleast they become a symbol of hope for my better INDIA!!!

Being ME!!!

Come this monday and here am gonna turn twenty three!!! jus staggered by the thought of it...
23 years have rolled out in being ME!!!! Pondering over the thought of how life has been these years... could not help myself in going thro' a nostalgic trip....

I was a very abnormal child.. ya. u heard it right... Abnormal child...( may be still Am:-))
well, I could really say I'd a very bad childhood days.... All I tasted during those days was hatred, complexes, ego ,bullying, mocking, frustration on and on and on... given a chance I would never ever will opt for the same.. But the most wonderful thing that has happened to me are my buddies whom I still hold close to my heart....

Then came my most wonderful phase of life... College days :-) put me on a time machine and order me to go back in life... I would surely go back to those golden days.... friends, class rooms , lecturers, my language classes, mass bunking, those humpty number of holidays, and above all my canteen...... WOW!!!!! I can jus go on and on and on and on....this phase of life is one which is worth writing a long post... and I would surely do...

And then came the this part of where I realised ME... this happened when my mom had to join my dad in seychelles and I was left back alone to deal my life... well that was lil crucial for my coz, I'd to do a balancing act between my studies, project, job interviews and also to take care of the house... well it was disgusting. frustrating ... but now when I look back... I think I could take some pride in me for having dealt it with zeal...:-)

In a nutshell, life these years has been a roller -coaster ride and now Am really not sure of what god has in store for me the rest of life, but whatever it is having full faith in the almighty lemme give it a chance...

Ranting here, ranting there and ranting every where...

* Mom says to spend more time with her..

* Dad asKs me to do lotof things at the same time..

* Sis orders me to be more responsible and organised..

* Bro-in-law warns me being over weight...

* Boss wants me to concentrate more on my job...

And here, Me wants a sovereignty ..

Wedding of the Year????!!!!

A lot has gone in the last few days for this much hyped wedding.... the so-called news channels trying to get the coverage when they were not even allowed to stay near the vicnity , lots of internet pages dedicated to the same as though it was the first time ever happening in the history since manKind came into existence.... the radio stations giving update of what the groom was doing at that given point of time..... Phew!! that was way beyond imagination... No gifts for guessing what all this is about... It's very much about the "Abhi-Ash saga".

well, am not trying to preach that the media should stop being frenzier for these tabloid news rather than concentrating on the rather important issues like inflation, human traffikking and so on... coz, we really can't hold on to too much of serious issues, but my fury is that why does media and people have to go gaga when they weren't even given the basic respect for a human...
The scenes outside Mr.Bachchan's residence was jus disheartening . The scenes of the photographers and few fans being caned was jus perturbing , and in one corner of my mind, I'd started thinking that these guys truly deserve it for relegating themselves to this unworthy thing. This was an ordeal of pure anguish. Hope that media and public in general try to become more civilised and be more responsible

BACK WITH A BANG!!!

And hey I know that this is what I would always tell myself after I would come back from a very long hibernation.... Each time I would write a post I would promise myself that I would regularly blog but some how I would never really not keep that up..for what ever reasons it might be...

The last six months was full of abuzz with tons of activities and tremendous changes in life... all for good..:-)

1. Not long before had I written this post cribbing about my first job and here am settled in my dream job and happily working for eleven hours.
2. The most awaited event of the year, the new entrant to our family finally happened bringing in all the joy, happiness.. promoting me to a new post ,CHITTHI... my darling sis gave birth to a beautiful baby girl... this is best thing which could ever happen to our family... :-)
3. The next best thing which could happen was to my best friend as she had finally found her significant other and happilly settled in life.. only to look more plumpier:-)
4. And finallly the D-Day had arrived for me to virtually get the touch og the tiny thing for whom I'd been waiting for almost 15 months.... Yes, after a long break of 3 and half years I saw my sis, my bro-in-law and ultimately, our bundle of joy.... KAJU:-)

The above events is worth writing a post itself which would surely do in coming days.. specially about our Kaju...:-)

Looking forward to keep up my promise..... and am sure I would..

THE MOZART OF CHENNAI!!!!

And that's how The Ultimate of Music-DA ONE ARR is proudly known as.... My one and only MATINEE IDOL.What's that am more attracted towards this maestro??? Is it the music or HIM?? Maybe both!!!More than him I think it's his music which talks more.Forthrightly,Iam no way entitled to comment on this genius's music.Apart from his music, the other thing which never fails to amuse me whenever I think about him is his modesty and his passion towards music.One classic example for his dedication was evident in his reply for a very usual question like "what's your activity during free time?", Guess what was his reply!"I listen to all kinds of music and I take this time as an oppournuity to listen to other's music".... Is there anything else required to elucidate his commitment towards his profession or rather his Passion?? Am sure the journey from his Jingles to his now international ventures would have not been an trouble-free one.. Inspite of this huge success, he has his head fixed straight over his shoulder.. and that's the reason why his fans worldwide celebrate him like this

Kurai Ondrum illai....

Amma has always been a great fan of this song.. I've seen totally losing herself when she starts singing this song... And couple of times have heard it in many of our family occassions.. but unlucky me, all these did not make a great impact... it was jus an another song .. not until my mom, after long incisive, bought the CDs of this song... And that was first time i heard the song in MS amma's bravura voice.. Man!! then I knew why my mom was totally into the song... No..am not goona give my review about this song.. am not anyway worth commenting on the song or on the divine voice ... All am here to say is how the song has brought in a change to me..Whenever i play this in ipod,it jus gets straight into my heart flushing out all my sunken emotions and blessing with a tranquil ,free-of emotions spirit and make me flutter light in the air ... Whenever i listen to this song it always helps me shed the sense of self and never failed to remind me of the ultimate power which is very much in me...and finally making me even sing Kurai ondrum illai along with her..

God's Own Child!!!

Yeah... that's the title given to me by none other than yours truly :-) Well, why shouldn't I.. when I have all the reasons for a self-proclamation... Family and friends are the imperative factors in any individual 's life.... which is very true in my life.I've jus handful of friends whom i can truly rely upon for anything and everything under the sun. TG,C,S,V, are the integral part of mine... Sharing 14 years of realtionship ... I hold them tight closely to my heart and i go down the memory lane to my good old schoo days.
Tg : My darling :)she's one girl who had never failed to amuse me with kind of mellowness she would face life, and have never seen loosing her cool whatever may be the intensity of problems ..even with so many years rolled out.. she still does it.. but if truth to be told, i really love the moments when she would unexpectedly bring out the hidden child in her.. I LOVE YOU di.. for whatever you are...

C The most respectable friend i have.. With tons of responsibilities sitting right on top of his head, I've never seen him in a goaded or in a dreary mood.. believe me!!! though the almighty has been lil injustice, he's always accepted it with a welcoming and confident smile... You go ahead da!! am really proud of you...:-)

S My partner in all the mischevious operations!! Infact s and me were friends from second standard... Forthrightly, it was both of us who were the happy-go-lucky ones of our gang..Though this guy would seem to be playful.. he's always been focussed.. n that's the reason he's now the member of the most privileged institution ICAI.hmmm.. ya you heard it right.. am now a proud friend of an young chartered account:-)...

V she's the newbie of our gang,who's gonna become the integral part of s :-).and now my only wish is let the almighty give rest three of us the same kind of life-partners.:-)
I cherish those moments we spent together and they are still afresh in my memories ... which will always remain till the curtains of my life comes to a draw finally... you are my priced possessions...
Like someone wrote :
Vannangalaga thanitthu vanthom...
Vanvil aga seirundhu nindrom...
We all met as strangers,and as the time flew, became the best est of friends... saw each other grow from child to adult.. and would still see the transformation with generations coming....

Destroyed in Love....

Being an exotic movie buffer, I don't watch movies jus for the heck of watching it. I would really delve into the logics and techniques of the movie and would like something which has a substance. So, in that case, I would very rarely get to watch movies.After a real long break, I happened to watch the then much hyped movie FANAA.Though the movie was not an astonishing one, but to my surprise, I sat glued to the screens without much fidgety.Contemplating on what made me tied up in the seats, It was jus the on-screen chemistry happening between stylish Aamir and the svelte-stunning and the -ever beautiful -Kajol.This was apparent in those romantic jiffies in the songs of Dekho naa.. and haath mein... Man!! I was totally lost in the movie... and didn't realise that movie had come to an end.. But truly this was the first movie watched by me for pure entertainment.

LIFE IS LIKE THAT!!

For all those who wondered where was I for the past six months(If only someone had really done!!;-) ), well most of the time trying unsuccessfully to understand the nitty-gritties of life.. For a girl like me, who always refused to come out of the "protecting blanket" of family's love and affection; who was an agnostic about people's behaviour, or rather, "misbehaviour"; who was made to view the world with a pink glass to see ONLY good things around me!!! life post-job has surely taken a topsy - turvy turn changing the color of the glasses with more of grey and less of pink.It has jus made to realise the saying that "All that glitters are not gold!! The scathful and inexplicable nature of fellow people has jus made me to realise how tough is it to be a clean slate, wherein people can jus come write over whatever THEY feel and jus get away with not really bothering about the marks they leave behind.With the predominance of sarcasm around, ignominy ,muffling on my stance for sure has been the testimonials of my change in the approach of viewing the world through grey glasses.And with none around to shoulder and understand when it's really a necessitate,life's totally gone rampant. what do these people derive of bickering? Happiness?? If yes, does it really exist for long?These are the few unanswered questions and am really trying hard to find an answer. I wonder how people can jus muck things for others and get away with it and the people at the receiving end are jus left behind flabbergasted . Sometimes, am really not able to resist the feeling of being unfit to insert myself in this world. I've paid a higher cost for having been so oblivious of life and now,better to late than to never have decided not to succumb to these kind of contemptible pressures and fight back the raising odds and do good to myself. And then continue my living in the hope that all bad things will have to come to an end.Hmmm.. i could really not help myself from an yet- another- cribbing post.But what to do LIFE"S LIKE THAT!!!;-)

THE DEVIL RETURNS! :-)

yes... am back after a real loooong time.Well.... life has taken lil twist during this tenure.it all started when i'd to take a break for my exams.for me exams had always been a nightmare, specially my maths exams! i used to have a tough time in remembering those formulaes and so on...more than the subject it was those frantic looks of my sis which threatened me more.coz, mom always put me on to my sis to teach me maths and my sis hates this job to the core(because i was so dumb in maths) and she would try all means to get rid of the "capital punishment" given to her which would ultimately end up with a quarrel between mom and sis.and there yours truly would escape without noticed:-). ironically, the subject which i majored in my under graduation was MATHS! this came as a surprise to whole of my life... hmmmm... but that's life right? "Expect the Unexpected".Fortunately my management studies are more interesting coz, i don't have to sit and load my brain forcefully.it jus requires our analytical and logical reasoning power, which i love to do! am jus waiting for my results with fingers crossed. lemme hope for the best. And the next big thing was the disappointment i got when my sister after so many thoughts juggling she finally declared that they weren't coming down to India on dec 30th.i'd so many plans about their trip.it was like we would be totally out of station for atleast a month,and there were also plans that we would meet our parents in seychelles but all that was completely shattered. well, it really took a long time for me to accept it, but again as always happen i was forced to accept .

but i think it was a blessing in disguise.coz, it was the same day that i'd to attend a placement interview.and now am placed.there are so many "firsts" in my life. My first interview, My first job, and so on. but again my complaint here is i didn't have anyone to share. i carried back lot of stories, exciting things which happened during my first day on the job only to realise that i didn't have any one to share with.for that matter, i still don't know how my folks are reacting to it.am not able to figure out what exactly they feel with that short duration over phone.am missing them so badly here.anyways as always, lemme try to accept this too.

A SPECIAL MEESAGE TO SPECIAL PERSON

I LOVE YOU....


for so many reasons,
it would take me all day
to list them....


I LOVE YOU....


because you make me laugh
until i can hardly breathe,

because all i've to do is look at you a certain way
and you know exactly what i'm thinking,

because i can trust you to understand even the things
i'm still trying to figure out...


I LOVE YOU...

because you're real,
all the time,
about everything,
no matter what,
and you help bring out the best in me...

over and over again,
you are truly an AMAZING person

and am proud to call you THE BEST FRIEND of mine..

and for many more reasons, there's no wonder that i celebrate the arrival of my "friend" on this earth nearly 26 years before and that too a day before so that i be the first person to wish on your BIRTHDAY..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AKKA....

AN UNFORGETTABLE WEEKEND

well... am sure this weekend would have been an unforgettable weekend for most of the chennaites.as a well known factor, chennai witnessed incessant rain from morning till night and it was in this same rain i got drenched for the first time ever in my life:-).i felt like dancing as the heroine of "mazhai",this was somewhere around eleven'o clock in the morning.i was enjoying this climate throughout the day without knowing it's after-effects.it should be around 3.00 am when i woke up to hear the reverberation of people in my colony.but i pay any heed to these reverberations coz it's like a common thing in the area i reside.but in the morning i opened my sit-out door only to see my area surrounded by water,it was as though i was in an island and i was also confused when i saw several women and children lying on the corridors of our building and my neighbouring building too.then later on i heard from my neighbour that flood have washed their homes and now our corridors have become their dwelling places.they had absolutely nothing with them not even the basic facilities they need to have.it was so painful for me to see people having their food on roads ,literally on roads, coz there was no other open space to accomodate these many people at the same time.and moreover this was an unexpected one and so neither the people nor the local governing bodies were prepared to face this kind of situation.and for me, this is the first time am being introduced to these kind of emergency situations and so i was little emotionally moved when i saw all that happening jus infront of my eyes. purely by god's grace there was not a single life loss reported.the corporation's work was really commendable here,normalcy was restored in just about 24 hours of the devastation.but the power cut which lasted for complete four days was the most intolerable thing.i was completely out of touch with the outer world for these four days.it was like almost my life had come to a stand-still without power.obviously,because of power cut for four days, we ran short of water .atleast to stay connected with my sis and parents,i needed mobile or landline which also ran out of battery(my landline is that CDMA connection which runs on battery too),so i'd charge my mobile in a browsing centre.Man!serioulsy i'd a tough time in managing things,but this time am not gonna complain my life coz i've learnt how blessed am.

HUH....

Life has now become a humdrum for me.It's real hard to play so many roles at the same time.as each day is passing my level of responsiblities are also growing with it. finding real hard to cope with these changes , but surely managing things in a much better way.wondering why all this frustrated thoughts, well.. it was jus that i was having an hectic schedule for the past five days.as i was in the verge of completion of the project had to finish off with my pending work, put my papers in an organised manner, complete my final formalities and finally report to my superior. since this my very first project i'd to put in lot of efforts and had to work meticulously till the end.and after all this , i reached home only to see it in a total dumped state.even the supposedly "booth bungalows" in tamil movies would have been far more better when compared to my home.when i started to clean ,i was wondering how i'd survived for the past three weeks amidst this mess. Now every thing is OVER.but truly, i've never been this occupied in life.now i know what life is .

but from now on am gonna be on my study hols for the exams which would begin by Dec 24th.and this also implies that the arrival of my bro-in-law and sis is also fast approaching:-).this is the only thing which is keeping up my spirits alive.am jus keeping my fingers crossed to hug and cuddle in their arms and shed out my responsibilties and be myself atleast for a month.but before that i still have a long way to go in cleaning my home to make it a presentable one before my bro-in-law steps in. because he's one person who does not compromise on cleanliness even for a million dollar deal.i still remember the day when it was jus few hours of his arrival from UK, the first thing he did was to clear his baggage and put those things in their respective places and at the same time cleared off the mess in his room.he was continuously working till he'd cleaned his comb which he'd used on his stay at UK.though he would not expect this level from me, but i should atleast try to satisfy his minimum expectation.hope i do that:-).

TRUE EMPOWERMENT...

Few months back when i was doing my usual thing- to flip through the channels, suddenly i stopped to my surprise to watch a tamil-speaking woman on BBC.she was explaining the process of how she had arranged her daughter's wedding without the help from her husband. while i was trying to figure out what exactly the program was all about, the reporter was talking about some concept called SELF HELP GROUPS. till that time , i hardly had any idea about these groups.though the program did not give me the whole idea about these groups, it did throw some light on it.short time after that, to my amazement i was informed by my professor that we were going to a place called Ranipet to do a project on that same Self help groups. till we'd reached that place i neither had any idea of what that place was nor my job .the only thing which kept up my spirits was the thought of meeting those women who are actively participating in those groups.A NGO called thirumalai charitable trust had sponsored our trip and it was for this trust we were doing that project.

In the morning, we were briefed about the whole concept of this self help groups and it's benefits.we were given a small presentation right from the history of these groups to the structure and functions of these groups.i was really zapped to know that these self help groups are making waves in my own state,TN(i was lil guilty that i didn't even know this much about my state:-)). this introductory session itself lasted till evening and then finally my most awaited session arrived. we were divided into two groups to meet the beneficiaries, ie, the members of those groups. there were about 108 groups from that place and it's neighbouring places with totally about 25,000 women participating on the whole. and we had a chance to meet one whole group which had about 25 women.i was really astonished to see those complete "village- bred" women flashing a confident and self estmeed smile on their faces.all these women are into some kind of occupation,though most of them had safely opted to work from home for example, making of incense sticks which does not require much of their time.they were confident in handling both their home and their business.when i asked about their family cooperation, specially from their husbands, majority of them gave their reply by maintaining a "dignified silence".yet i could see the difference that the concept of self help groups have given them.i could feel the true sense of Women Empowerment airing in every moment i spent with those truly confident women.It was a real experience for me.

Apart from those emotional notes, i did see some lapses in this concept.of all those, the major concerned one was that the loans which are lent to these women mainly goes in to meet their personal needs rather than indulging in any of the income-generating activity. if this is not mended, then the main objective of SELF HELP GROUPS goes unnoticed.hope they might change over a period of time.

LIFE WITHOUT MOM....

It's been almost two and a half weeks since my mom flew to seychelles with my dad.And from then on it's yours truly who is managing the whole show,ie, right from managing house-hold chores to my official and personal needs.this is the most unbelievable and miraculous thing which can happen to me: leading a life sans my mom. I was this girl who would depend upon her for every little thing i do, right from what channel i need to watch to decide whether i need to attend my that day's classes or not. if you'd by now thought that am a school going girl, pardon me, am pursuing my management studies. somehow, i grew under her shelter completely.Honestly i liked it too. But the last two weeks has taught loads of things to me.It has taught how selfishly i've dealt my mom and how i've taken an undue advantage on her under the protective cover of being her daughter.But now the entire scenario has changed. i wake up with thought of what all things i've to complete for that day.i've begun to be more organised and try to do my work independantly in an effective and efficient manner.
I do have some complaints about this way of life. sometimes it's highly irritating and frustrating to do everything wholly by me. but it's this period which had taught me some valuable lessons in my life apart from what i said above. i've realised the value of relationships. for the past two weeks ,my sis makes it a point to call me twice a day!(for those wondering where she's.. she's in US right now) she's very much worried about me here.my parents call up atleast once in two days and not to forget my friends, they are keeping me occupied by messaging and calls till i go to sleep.am feeling elated about all these because i always complain of loneliness and i also have a feeling that know one cares about me. this thought of mine have proved that am wrong.:-)

But yes, to me, nothing can compensate my mom's presence.

I MISS YOU MOM..